Im glad to say that the diarhoea has cleared up, Mums now managing to get about, downstairs at least.
Tommorow is the first of many more appointments. 8.30 for blood test then onto the hospital for another ct scan.
Her last one was March so there is every chance that the cancer has progressed even further.

I still cant believe the amount of information and appointmenets we got bombarded with last week, x-rays, scans, blood tests, chemo, anti sickness drugs, anti biotics. And this is just the beginning.

Me? I feel fine, I thought that maybe one day this week I would have been in emotional turmoil, but I havn't.
When I talk to myself in my head I always think that Mum although not old by any means at 66, it could be a lot worse! I look around at these children who are terminal, the other night I caught a glimpse on television of a 12 year old girl who died of a terminal illness. That must be every parents nightmare.

Its inevitable that our parents die before us, isn't it?

My dad died SO suddenly back in 1996, it completely floored us all. No last goodbyes, no closure.
At least we know, thats all I can say to everyone. We can ask the questions we want to ask, say the things we want to, cherish moments.

Mum talks a lot to me, and she has said she feels that she can talk to me becuase Im the "strong one". I suppose I always try and see the positive side in things.

We have had a laugh about a few things.
A nurse offered mum a wig book to view. Apparntly she may start to loose her hair in about 3 weeks time so its best to try and get a wig similar to what her hair is like now.

My reaction to that was "Why on earth would you want a wig exactly the same as that?" lol
And "you better make sure you put your wig on before you take the bin out - you dont want the neighbours thinking Uncle Fester has moved in at number 6" lol

We had a laugh though I know from when I was having counselling not so long ago, my counsellor called this gallows humour. I just think that we have to try and see the funny side of things.

She also said about drawing her eyebrows back on when she is laid out in her coffin, I said" well we need to make sure thats done right, otherwise you might look suprised!"

I suppose we all deal with things in our own way. Laughing about it is just mine and mums way.