Exhausted

I read back yesterdays post and I may have sounded a bit angry, or in despair, I don't know which.

I'm just getting bit frustrated I guess, as I seem to be so tired all the time, and feeling run down.

No matter how much sleep I seem to get, I crave more. I have been sleeping every afternoon with my son, and still going to bed at a reasonable time in the evening. Headaches, and generally feeling like ' I can't be marthered', is all pointing to this ongoing demon inside me that is depression.

I think it's time I should see the doctor myself, having just one prozac a day maybe isn't boosting me enough.

I think I am mentally and physically exhausted.

My boyfriend is taking me on holiday in a couple of weeks, maybe a few days away is just what I need. All the sleep I can handle and hopefully come back refreshed and ready to tackle the world head on again.

No matter how much you want to take 'each day at a time', you really can't. Always thinking ahead to the next thing we got

People have always said about me that I'm so strong - days like today, I don't feel like it. I feel ready to crumble without any warning, and no cracks are showing - to anyone on the outside at least.

Mum should be in the middle of receiving blood today as her hemaglobin (red blood cells) levels are a bit low, then she should be having another dose of chemo.

I havn't gone with her today as I am at work, but maybe will see her tomorrow.