Good News / Bad News

Which do you want first as it's been a week for both?

The good news? My colposcopy is ok for the time being but I need to return in 6 months for another check.

The BIG news............I'm getting married!

Mum is really excited about the whole thing as she really like my boyfriend and it gives her something to look forward to. Its booked for June 2011 so only a few months away and I think the time will fly by.

Bad News? Well Mum hasn't been too good really. She keeps being sick and the cough is back.
I saw her on Thursday to tell her about the wedding and she shown me how her hair is doing.
Its really weird, its started growing back where they didn't do the radiotherapy on the brain. Just a square like patch on the back of her head.

Yesterday..............heard the sad news of a friends Dad that has now passed to this awful disease.
Funny that someone I only knew of, hearing of his passing, brought tears to my eyes. Mainly for his daughter and devastation the family must be feeling.

If anything positive can come out of this its that I feel like I have formed a good friend.
Over the past couple of weeks we have exchanged a few messages and I have really tried to offer words of support. Although I know that nothing I could say or do would make her pain and despair go away, I wish I could, this is truly the worst part of life isn't it? For those left behind, no words of comfort can even begin to heal. So what can I say? But be there if she needs me.

When my own Dad died the best thing that anyone said to me was this 'I really don't know what to say, so I won't say anything at all'. It has always stayed with me, as it was the most honest reaction anyone had. I know everyone was sincere at the time but at the time it just seemed like a string of cliches coming out 0f everyones mouths.

I must admit that slightly selfish, there was also a heaviness in my heart as in the midst of my happiness of looking at honeymoons and wedding dresses, this jolted me to realise that Mum might not make it to see the big day.

Mum was on a real downer yesterday too by all accounts. I think she is fed up of feeling ill all the time.
My sister is taking her shopping today so will see how she feels after that and we'll go and see her.